Just my thougths

will it be a end or a beginning?

People familer with source would have know that i have stepped down from being a chairman of these specify committe. Somehow it has caused a stir which was not within my thoughts then. I have explained myself bluntly over the issue. I know i'll have to make a formal explaination, and i believe so. But i am not doing so now, cause after some ''inspiration" from MOB and i have agree to someone that i should not give up on things made me ponder over my resigination. Its a struggle thought believe me.

The thought that this is a challenge as a chairman would have to face vs thought like, i'm not the best person to lead and many other. All and all is at the interest of the group. Perhaps I made a mistake that i think more from a marco point than micro at the benefit of everyone.

On a informal note, maybe many would not know, that i felt partially responsibile that the idea was taken off the self. Partially i felt my creative juice have ran out. Partially i felt i'll nt be able to lead for a new direction. and many other BIG partially! Yes, its a lot of "i" and of cos there are the "we" part. There are so many things and being a leader just not that easy. I have accountability to everyone, yet at the interest of the task and meeting objective. I also have to vision ahead, planning ahead and solving issue concurrently with little or virtually no authority.

But of all the thoughts, i realised, it's only i have the (real) support of everyone, then its a simple story. However its part of the job of a chairman to gather support. My Mob teacher was right- it start from: needs of everyone.

Yes, i am not a simple leader. Just like i told Vic, if i am elected as Eclub chairman, i will introduce major reform. I am a leader in my own belief like rome wasnt build in one day. My post is not pointing finger if there is, i am only pointing to me. A organisation failed because the top failed to lead.


it's all but never give up